What is - "The Will Of God"

Lately "the will of God" and "Gods ultimate plan" concepts have been in my thoughts constantly, as seek for employment and fumble around clumsily in the dark, attempting to establish what profession I need to be in or "have been ordained to" so to speak.

I wonder if this way of thinking is a trap, I wonder how many opportunities I have missed, I wonder how useful I could have been to the master, how much time and talents have I buried in the ground? Time and talents that could have been very easily put use and be invested.

If I'm working for Christ I've made a poor use of company time. Wondering and pondering if I'm doing the job the boss wants me to do instead of doing the work - loving people, cultivating relationships, clothing the naked, feeding the hungry.

I wonder if this is bad theology? In scripture we very clearly see that God has plans for us.

But we also get the pictures of a light unto the path and just being called somewhere not knowing why or having all the specifics of how life will be lived there, or if he would have enough to sustain himself and his family(abram)

Often we only get to see the next step of faith, most times for me I don't even get to see the next step... This makes me think I need to be less focused on where my next step is and more on who I'm becoming in Christ, how I'm growing, where I'm plugging into the action already taking place, instead of "waiting for God's guiding" to help someone. I think we are (or at least I am called to be somebody who reacts. And reactions come from the center of who you are. If you are centered on Christ then you will react in a manner such as Christ would.

There are hurting people all around us we can love, and loving people was Gods command... We don't have to wait around for the nod from God, to love people.

For us to love people from who we are and we are at - I believe that is the ultimate will of God... So that none may perish

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I continue to struggle with these thoughts however what is God's will for my life?